Finally completed the change. =P

Finally this skin fit my feeling now. =)

Travel... Always on the Move

Finally the answer is out.

They will move to the west end of the homeland.
I will move with them. But I will rent another room nearby so that I can accompany mum when my siblings are busy.

On my part, I am sort of settled down with the idea. I think it is for the better.

Bro decided to take up the responsibility of paying all the rental and water bill. Nothing make a person grows up more then hardship. When I am around, they thought that I will always be there. But now he grows up. More responsible more sensible.

Sis? She has been very pressurised by herself. Thinking I will not be with them, she has to be independent. Thinking that she would be able to take care of Mum. So she wants to find a job as quickly as possible. Thus these days has been very emotional days for her. Not easy. But it is part of life.

At first I thought that they purposely left me out of their plan, thus I was very very sad. But looking at their emotions these few days. I think they have made the same mistake again - Not thinking clearly before they do anythings. Unintentionally hurting me.

However, whatever it is. I believe it is turning for the better. Cos at last they are growing up. Taking responsibilities that they should have long assume as son, as daughter, as a citizen of the society.

Now is time to start saving so that I can buy the necessary daily items for them and rental for my new place. Moving cost. New items such as lamps, heater system, all installations. Beds, shelve,etc. So many things in such a short time. But I will be able to make it. No problem.

I am not afraid of hardship. I am more afraid losing direction in life. Losing myself. If I need anything, it is my compass in life. That is all. =)

☆杨丞琳☆
☆词 曲:苏打绿☆

每次我总一个人走
交叉路口自己生活
这次你却说带我走
某个角落就你和我

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后 计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有 发过的梦

带我走
到遥远的以后
带走我
一个人自转的寂寞
带我走
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走

每次我总独自远走
保持缄默不皱眉头
这次你却说一起走
彼此温柔 从此以后

像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌
在你的身后 计算的步伐每个背影每个场景
都有 发过的梦

带我走
到遥远的以后
带走我
一个人自转的寂寞

带我走
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走
wo```

白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨
wo~~

蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏...

带我走
到遥远的以后
带走我
一个人自转的寂寞
带我走
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕 带我走

带我走
就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
wo~~

带我走

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Very sad.

Tried so hard. It endded up the same. I am going to be alone soon.

Very sad. Cried so many times, yet come to think of it again. I want to cry again.

I could not help feeling sad. However talking helped. Sometime I dont have to talk about it also can help to direct my attention away. Making people laugh help to make me forget my pain for awhile. But when everyone left, the pain is still the same. More lonely.

However, there must be a reason to all this. Kept telling myself to numb the pain to be brave. Keep telling my friends it would be for the better of everyone so that they will not be worry. But it still hurt. It is painful. Will we ever live together again in this life time? I dont know.

I am very sure I will miss them. Not so sure will they miss me. This time my tears is not allowed to flow. All keep in. I am brave.