Very sad.

Tried so hard. It endded up the same. I am going to be alone soon.

Very sad. Cried so many times, yet come to think of it again. I want to cry again.

I could not help feeling sad. However talking helped. Sometime I dont have to talk about it also can help to direct my attention away. Making people laugh help to make me forget my pain for awhile. But when everyone left, the pain is still the same. More lonely.

However, there must be a reason to all this. Kept telling myself to numb the pain to be brave. Keep telling my friends it would be for the better of everyone so that they will not be worry. But it still hurt. It is painful. Will we ever live together again in this life time? I dont know.

I am very sure I will miss them. Not so sure will they miss me. This time my tears is not allowed to flow. All keep in. I am brave.