It has been a long time since I really seat down to reflect on my life and blog it.

Too much had happened... Not till tonite meeting with my friend ML that decided to blog again...

Brief update... Pass few months fighting with myself on to change a job or not in this bad economy situation. Final decision is to stay and learn.

Then the big news came...

We were sold!!

Fear, anxious, uncertainty.
So much emotions.

I felt that rather then fearing, I would like to know what is coming. Finally picking up the courage to find out more...
Guess what? The other company don't have finance, IT and HR departments. All were been outsourced. Well most importantly the organisation structure don not have my department. The function is been conbined with another department.

Just as I though so. My Department job role can actually be conbine with another department.

See where fate bring me?

So I start on the painful journey to look for job... Till date I only sent 2 resumes. Bad isn't it?

Doing a balancing act these few months too...

My mum shop neighbours are becoming very political these days... Refusing to speak to my mum and sis. Insulted them openly and chasing away their customers.

On the other hand, I am dealing with my colleagues who are political too. Refusing to talk to me. Even the "friend" at work start to take sides.

I was very lost at 1st, hurt too...
However, after speaking to my boss, I decided the situation I am in is not the worse.
I decided to stand up... =D

While try to raise above my situation, I listen to my mum and sis complaints. At times due to pressure, they would accuse and verbal assaulting me. Sometime really feel like giving up.

However, it is my Buddhist practise that gives me courageous and determination to carry on.

I am not giving up. I find the answer to my sis problem recently through byakuran meeting and studies. I will slowing teach her and pray for her happiness too...

I have a list of things to do. I cant fall sick. I cant give up.