It has been so long since I wrote my thoughts.
Would mine friends still visit here to read? Or would they think this is yet another abandon site?
I am on another job now. 14 Oct would be my 3rd month anniversary! Time files!
Before arriving in this job I am all excited. So excited that I could not contain my joy by counting down to the days before I start it. The location of the office, the pay and job natural... All of which I loved and prayed for. All here all come true.
Now 2 months plus into the job. What are my thoughts?
Alot went through my mind. Colleagues are too good. A bit afraid of my boss. Missed one of my colleague (because he treat me too good), but he had left. Job hunting in Australia now.
But something had happened to me. Good and not so good. Good thing is I have become closer to a WD and she guiding me in my life in practice of my faith and also expending circle of friendship. This is a good thing. I am more positive now.
The not so good side of thing is that I am starting to develop some disturbed sleeping patten. No matter what time I sleep, I would wake up around 4 to 5 in the morning and could not goes back to sleep any more.
This is kind of irritating as I am tired and wished to sleep more. But I COULD NOT! My heart would be pounding very fast like I am running. I have to quit coffee because of pounding heart problem too!
Looks like a lot had happened to me within just mere 2 months time.
Read a book this morning. It is about sleeping problem. Mine case hopefully is a temperately problem due to new changes to my work place. However, I felt that and know that there is more to work problem that caused me this stress. There is also some sort of heart problem too.
I must sort things out. I must recover.
Used to not understand why should a person live out his/her life long. However, recent encountered with a friend who told me that he would like to live long because he believed he can contribute more to people around him. He can help and would like to help those in need. His life is a life of deep compassion. It is because when you live for others then you would have to courage to continue when all seem dim and hopeless.
I want to live long too. I know I too can contribute more to the people around me. Thus I will find the root to my problem. This would be my current 1st priorities. Only with my good physical and mental health can I contribute.
If I were to live, I want to live out my life to the fullest.
Nothing in between life and death. If living in between than, why live at all?
Only choice - Living to the fullest!
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